Motherhood

Motherhood, at least in my opinion, is the best job any woman can have. Can you honestly think of any other job that requires so much attention, love, nourishment, time and effort? No. There are no other jobs out that that can even compare to how fulfilling this one can be. That is the job I've been waiting for my whole life. That is the only thing I've ever wanted to be:a mom. I've dreamed of it my entire life, and now, it is finally going to come true. I'm only a little over a month along with our little miracle, and yet, I'm still counting down the days to when I can see our little baby. Nothing gets me more excited than looking at cute little baby stuff and thinking about what kind of mom I will be. There is no question in my mind, I know I will be a good mom because of how I feel about our little baby right now. I feel like that is what I'm meant to do, and I want it more than anything else. I'm ready to teach our little one right from wrong and be there to care and watch over him/her until they can take care of themselves. I know our little baby will be raised right and it will be absolutely surrounded by love because of how much love my husband and I have for one another. I can't wait to bring our little bundle of joy into our loving household. This baby will change our lives for the better and will make our little family complete!

Our half year anniversary

Today is our half year anniversary. My husband and I have been married for two and a half years now. Time flies by so fast. It seems like just yesterday we were dating. There have been so many great things that have some out of that two and a half years of our marriage. We've definitely hit some very painful, rough spots along the way and had our share of the down sides of life; but more than all that, we've definitely had the best times life can give. My best memories are from being with my husband. He can turn the darkest situations around and take my biggest fears and stresses away in the blink of an eye. I'm the pessimist, he's the optimistic one. He evens us out perfectly. He's given me everything he can and more. He's given me a home, a puppy that I've been wanting my whole life, protection, security and everything that a husband can give his eternal partner. And now, he has given me my dream: to be a mom. I'm pregnant with our first baby, and couldn't be happier. It is amazing to me that we created a little human being out of pure love for each other. This little baby will make my life complete and will bring so much joy into our little home. I will have our baby a couple months after our REAL anniversary. Life is great. He has made my life great. And every half year anniversary and real anniversary, I think back to the day that I married him. I remember the butterflies in my stomache and looking in the mirror wondering if I looked ok. Being worried that my make up would smear or that I would trip over my dress because I was still recovering from knee surgery. But when I saw his face looking at me from across the room, I knew everything was ok and that I was making the best decision of my life. His eyes said so much. The way he looked at me and the way he smiled showed me how he felt that day. I knew that he loved me and would always be there for me. I knew that no matter what happened in our lives, everything would be ok. I knew we'd always have each other for time and all eternity, and just knowing that, made my life complete. Our love has grown, and is still growing. There's nothing we wouldn't do for each other and we put each other before anything else. If that's not true love, then I don't know what is.

My Music

I love music. It has always been a huge part of my life. Everywhere I go and just about everything I do involves me listening to music. It makes tasks so much more enjoyable and music can help pass the time at work. I wish I could say that I love all kinds of music, but that would be a lie. I can't stand country. At all. I've tried so hard to like it. Heck, I was even raised listening to Oldies and Country my whole life. I love oldies, but i could never even remotely stand country. Something about the tractors and twangy guitar seems like it's a repellent to me. I could never get tired of listening to oldies though. They don't call them "oldies but goldies" for nothing! My favorite all time oldies band is the Beatles. I have loved them ever since I was about five. They will always be my all time favorite band. But as for the new music I like?I like more rock and punk sort of music. Not the ones that scream their heads off yelling mindless things, but the ones that are kinda loud and have lyrics to them that make sense. My favorite modern day groups are My Chemical Romance, Good Charlotte, All American Rejects, Simple Plan, Sum 41, Panic at the Disco, Fallout Boy, Papa Roach and many others. It's the kind of music that makes you feel happy(yes, even the ones that are kind of depressing make me happy) and just makes the day a lot easier to live through sometimes. Music is a huge part of a lot of peoples lives, and I'm happy to say that I'm one of those people!

Family

Family is the best thing there is in this world. Think about it, when your days are hard and you're going through a really rough time, you always have someone you can turn to. I've been having a tough time lately. Little things have been adding up and making me wonder when it would all end. It seemed like the bad things were just going to keep coming and coming. I finally asked my husband where the silver lining was in all of this. His response made me think of something I never really have before. He said " The silver lining is all your friends and family who stick by you and support you through all the hard times. They're always there for you." He made a really good point. I don't know about anyone else's family, but i know that if i ever need something or just someone to talk to, my family has always been and will always be there for me. The best memories I have in life are from my family, and that includes my own little family consisting of my husband Levi, 2 hyper dogs, and 4 little sugar gliders. Family is something we take for granted all too often. But stop and think about it, they will all be gone one day. Sometimes we just assume they'll be around forever, heck, i even assumed that about my childhood cat that i just lost. But the truth is, they won't. We need to take advantage of the time we have with our families and stop taking them for granted. Think back on how much they've done for you and the things they sacrificed. Our families deserve the most that we can give them. When it's our time to go, all we'll be able to take with us are those precious memories. Not the material things we worry so much about having. None of that matters in the long run. I'm proud to say that when it is my time to go, i will have the best memories anyone could possibly have!

My Pregnancy Problems

My husband and I have been married for two and a half years now. We want a baby so bad, but we've been having quite a few set backs.
The first one happened a little over a year ago. I had a very painful, sudden miscarriage. I didn't even know i was pregnant at that time because my body was just acting how it normally does. There were no signs of me being pregnant that stood out enough for me to know. It was still a very emotional time for me. Even though we weren't trying for a baby at that time, my husband and I want kids very badly. Finding out that I was pregnant and that I had lost the baby hurt me so bad. I would cry all day and all night. My mom and husband kept telling me that it was probably for the best because something was wrong with the baby, but it still hurt me emotionally and took me a long time to get over.
Now, a year later, we are trying to have a baby. I thought that since I already had one miscarriage that everything would turn out fine the next time I got pregnant. That didn't turn out right. About two months ago we found out I was pregnant again. My husband and I were so happy, we both literally had tears of joy. We ran out and bought outfits and bottles for the baby. We were just so happy, we wanted to buy everything for our little one. Then it happened, I lost the baby once again. None of us could figure out why. The doctor said that I was fine and that something must've been wrong with the baby again. This hit me a lot worse than the first miscarriage did. All I could do was cry. I cried and prayed for a days after that.
I've finally gotten over that and we're ready to try again. I'm so scared but at the same time i feel confident that the third time will be a charm. Has anyone else had this happen this many times? All i can do is hope and pray that the next baby will stay with me and be born a beautiful, healthy baby. I want a baby so bad, i don't think i could handle another miscarriage. All i can do is have faith, hope and believe that we will be able to have a little one of our own soon.

The things we put up with when it comes to our four legged friends

My husband surprised me with a puppy last year for Christmas. We named her Calypso,Callie for short. She was the cutest little thing I'd ever seen and my heart would melt when I would look into those puppy dog eyes. She was very quiet and calm the first and second night after we took her home. It all changed after that. She would whine, bark, run around, go to the bathroom everywhere and all while we were sound asleep. You see, we couldn't keep her locked up in a cage all night because at that time we were living in an apartment where we weren't supposed to have dogs. We were moving into a house in a couple days, and just had to try to keep her quiet so no one could hear her bark.
She potty trained really fast, but started to get another bad habit:Biting. She would bite anything and everything. My husband and i had scars all over our hands from those wicked puppy teeth.
She finally grew out of that bad habit......half of it at least. She stopped biting us, now she was just chewing and destroying everything in sight. Since we've moved into our house she's chewed the sprinkling system wires, my husbands basketball shoes, our door, a video game, the table cloth, and many more things.
She's about seven months now and she's still really hyper, but she's calmed down on the destroying end of it. She's a lab mix, and i understand they're all pretty much like that.
As mad as i get at her for chewing on things, all she has to do is look up at me with those big puppy dog eyes to make me forget it all and remember the way i felt when i first saw her tiny face.
We now have another dog along with Callie named Karma. She's a Chesapeake Retriever mix. I love that dog to death as well, but Callie is my baby girl. Karma takes to my husband more, and Callie does to me. I think that dog could chew up our whole house and everything in it and I would still feel all that unconditional love that I did the first time my husband handed her to me. The things we put up with!