Sunday, June 15, 2008

My Pregnancy Problems

My husband and I have been married for two and a half years now. We want a baby so bad, but we've been having quite a few set backs.
The first one happened a little over a year ago. I had a very painful, sudden miscarriage. I didn't even know i was pregnant at that time because my body was just acting how it normally does. There were no signs of me being pregnant that stood out enough for me to know. It was still a very emotional time for me. Even though we weren't trying for a baby at that time, my husband and I want kids very badly. Finding out that I was pregnant and that I had lost the baby hurt me so bad. I would cry all day and all night. My mom and husband kept telling me that it was probably for the best because something was wrong with the baby, but it still hurt me emotionally and took me a long time to get over.
Now, a year later, we are trying to have a baby. I thought that since I already had one miscarriage that everything would turn out fine the next time I got pregnant. That didn't turn out right. About two months ago we found out I was pregnant again. My husband and I were so happy, we both literally had tears of joy. We ran out and bought outfits and bottles for the baby. We were just so happy, we wanted to buy everything for our little one. Then it happened, I lost the baby once again. None of us could figure out why. The doctor said that I was fine and that something must've been wrong with the baby again. This hit me a lot worse than the first miscarriage did. All I could do was cry. I cried and prayed for a days after that.
I've finally gotten over that and we're ready to try again. I'm so scared but at the same time i feel confident that the third time will be a charm. Has anyone else had this happen this many times? All i can do is hope and pray that the next baby will stay with me and be born a beautiful, healthy baby. I want a baby so bad, i don't think i could handle another miscarriage. All i can do is have faith, hope and believe that we will be able to have a little one of our own soon.

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